You read the title right, I’m giving up. Sort of. I’ve been struggling with the proper formula for getting myself where I want to be physically. Is it my diet, is it my exercise, am I lacking in something? I’ve read tons of books, countless articles, talked to all sorts of people running the spectrum of opinions. My willpower sucks, but I stay mostly on the wagon, and I’m still not getting anywhere.
So I give up on all of that. I realized the other day that this is mental. Last night I was reading the book Love Yourself Like Your Life Depends On It. It only took me an hour to read, so pick it up if you have a chance. In it the author asks himself a question similar to “if I loved myself, would I do this to myself?” I don’t think I have the wording exact, but that’s the idea. This made me question pretty much everything I’m doing in my own life right now. Would I eat this food, drink this, be in this relationship, avoid this relationship, skip workouts, etc. My answer to a lot of the individual questions was no.
Truth is, I do have a darn good life. I have more than most, less than some, but my needs are mostly met. I have amazing children who are smart, healthy and happy. I don’t have a lot of reasons to complain. But, that doesn’t mean I love who I am or that I’m at peace with everything about my life.
I need to work on my head more, and I think the rest will follow. It’s like when you have a friend who is trying to get pregnant, and they stop trying and are suddenly pregnant. I hope that by just focusing on just being kind to myself my body will respond. I’m going to try to ask myself about the food I’m eating, the relationships I have, the exercise I do, and see where that leads me.